I made myself a promise. I said that I was not going to post here again unless I got really serious about changing. In reading over my posts, it seemed like I was in this start/stop mode and it was getting old. The truth is, was in this cycle:
- Do something drastic to kick-start my weight loss.
- Hit the gym like a mad man.
- Get disappointed when the results didn’t come right away.
- Get depressed and revert back to bad habits.
- Lather, rinse, repeat.
I tried juice fasts so many times that I am starting to get sick by smelling kale. I don’t know if I could ever do raw foods for an entire week again. Those that do, you have my undying respect.
In other words, I didn’t get fat in a week so, I am not losing it in a week.
For me, it’s about changing my thinking and lifestyle and then letting the benefits of those changes. As a result, I am working on me, from a wholistic approach. I am not just trying to change how I look. I am trying to change how I view myself and to get past the feelings of guilt and the feelings of being trapped in my own body.
Also, it’s about not beating myself up for every mistake, magnifying its impact by 100 times and then letting those bad feelings derail me. Let me elaborate on this. Have you ever eaten some junk, like a doughnut for breakfast or take out for lunch and said, “heck, since I’ve already fallen of the wagon, I might as well eat badly for the rest of the day”? Or, even worse, tell yourself that you’re weak and resign yourself to not ever being better.
I am looking to have fewer and fewer of THOSE days. Instead, I’m working on a new me.