“Just when I thought I was out…they pull me back in.” – Michael Corleone, The Godfather III
I had one of those moments, yesterday. You know them. It’s the critical moment when you either give in to temptation or fight it off.
Let me set it up: it was my fourth day of being on raw foods. That’s about 12 meals of uncooked salads, fruits, vegetables, nuts and juices, not to mention snacks. It’s usually just shy of my goal that I cave. I made it 8 days on a juice fast when I was going for 10. The last couple of times I tried going meatless, I made it a whopping 1 day. So, that little voice in my head was already tempting me.
Then, I saw it. It was the taco meat (made from ground chicken) that my wife cooked a couple of days prior. It was just sitting there, lonely and waiting for me to pick it up and eat it. Next to it was more salad, below it were the fruit and vegetable crisper brimming over with “green stuff”. But, d*mn it, I wanted taco meat! I could almost taste it. I couldn’t stop thinking about putting it in a hot, crunchy shell and topping it with lettuce, onion and taco sauce. Everybody was upstairs so, no one would see me eating it.
It’s was actually that last thought that brought me back. No one would see me eat it. But, that wasn’t the point. Why go through it if you’re going to be dishonest about it? Granted, it was only ground chicken. But, what if it wasn’t? What if it was a greasy burger, fries and a shake? What then? It’s not like the calories only matter when someone sees you eating it. It’s not like you can say, “hey doc, how can my cholesterol be so high, I only eat the bad stuff when I’m alone?”
Sometimes, we have to do things for ourselves and be accountable to only ourselves, in those alone times, our resolve gets tested. It’s up to us to decide how we are going to respond.
I’m happy to say that I stuck to the plan yesterday and I’m still working to make it two more days. After that, who knows? But, if I can stick to my guns and reach this goal, I’ll know that I can set and reach other goals, also.